Work

I’m in the process of becoming a substitute teacher, to help me save up money so I can move! Things are looking up 🙂

Hope

I’ve applied to soooooo many jobs the past couple weeks, I’m really hoping something good happens, finally, I need some good news quite desperately.

Depression

Depression is a fog. It clouds your mind and heart and is a veil over not just the bad things, but also the good. I realised this the day that mine began to act up on a perfectly sunny, summer afternoon, when I should have felt happy. And I didn’t. Instead, I felt that sinking

Moonlight

It was never ok, Never quite settled Or content, Always a sense of Rattled hearts And splintered fingertips, Reaching for the moonlight As it spilt across your back On October nights when The windows were open And the air was cool As ice in tall glasses On Saturdays in July, But you never stirred, Unable

1906

It was all too much, each day the heavy weight of continuing on waited to crush her, knowing her arms were too weak to lift the load above her head once it fell. She couldn’t hold it off any longer. It had hung there for far too long, taunting her, teasing it’s imminent collapse. Her

Sadness

I genuinely feel like things will never get better, and it is getting harder and harder by the day to stay positive, I’m trying but I feel like I’m truly drowning tbh.

Time

My birthday is in a couple days and I genuinely don’t care this year. I feel so lifeless, I might not even bother going to dinner because none of this matters. This isn’t where I expected to be at my age, so I just give up tbh. I can’t even pretend to be ok anymore.

Job

Well. I haven’t heard back about a third interview so that’s dead. On to the next.

Life

Had my second interview on Thursday for a job in California! Really hoping I might get the third interview and see where it goes from there 🙂

Depression is

Thinking you’ve pulled yourself out it, but realizing you’ve relapsed and fallen back into the abyss of sadness. And choosing to try to pull yourself out of it tomorrow. Again.

Quote of the day

“Go all the way with it. Do not back off. For once, go all the goddamn way with what matters.” — Ernest Hemingway

Depression Is

Not leaving the house for nearly two weeks because you can’t get going and struggle to even get out of bed. And then finally, the light breaks through, and you get up, and you go out, and it feels like the fog has cleared. At least, for the time being.